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Wednesday, May 9th, 2012, 8:38pm:

(PS: Feel free to start the background music in the video below to listen to as you read.)

As I've been working on this website, doing research on "big picture" statistics and hearing the stories of individual women, I haven't realized what a heavy toll it's been on me. The fight against the injustice of sexual bondage has been a passion in my heart for the last 13 years, but I have never been as steeped in the details and emotions of this fight as I have in the last 48 hours. I've cried many times about the injustice of it, calling out to God in prayer to stop it, to save even one woman being molested right at that very moment, but in doing the research for this website, I cried very little.

Why? I believe there's only so much the human heart can take. But emotion doesn't have to show on the outside to have an effect on the inside.

I've been torn up inside. As I was beginning this blog, a very different way, I felt restless and turned on some music - You Know Me was playing, by Bethel, on their CD, The Loft Sessions. Instantly, I felt the warmth of God's presence on me, and had to leave my desk to sit down in worship. He spoke gently to my heart: He spoke comfort to me, that even though it seemed few people cared about this fight or understood the imperative nature of it, He knew. He knew me. He knew my heart and motivation. He showed me how all throughout my day, the emotions of this topic had been weighing on me, affecting my interactions with others (I was more subdued and distracted than usual, without realizing it). I had felt ungrounded. But I knew everything was OK, too. Because it is. He knows me. I've known that, but suddenly, I felt it, and the relief that realization brought me washed over me.

I just want to tell you, dear reader, He knows you, too. Whether you're an interested observer, a volunteer in a participating organization, or a former/current sex slave, He knows you. Intimately. He sees you. He understands. I'm going to put a link to this song in my blog today, and I'd like you to just listen to it and let the realization of who God is wash over you.

He knows you. And no matter what, He loves you. Unconditionally. Passionately. Truly.

- Kay

You Know Me


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